So, tomorrow is my first race of the season and as much as I keep telling myself that this is a “B race” (a lower priority race in the training plan) and I’m just doing it as a preparation for the big dance at Lake Stevens in three weeks, I’m a little nervous about it. I think it’s mostly because I did this event last year and had a terrible race. The weather was gray and drizzly, which didn’t help. But I certainly did my part.
I kicked things off by deciding to wear my brand new wetsuit for the first time (turns out it was too small) – huge rookie mistake. It was like swimming in a corset. Every three strokes I’d have to stop and pant for a bit, which made my goggles fog up. Rinse and repeat. As you can imagine, this did not set me up for success in the other two events. As I wheezed my way onto the bike, the remaining five people who hadn’t passed me in the swim got their chance on the bike. Then leaving onto the run, I managed to stay in front of this other guy, who eventually passed me so that I could see that he was 77. And passing me.
I ended up being third from last and bursting into tears after I crossed the finish line, totally humiliated by how badly I’d done. It wasn’t like I hadn’t been training and I had a half-ironman in three weeks (sound familiar?) That race was supposed to build up my confidence and instead it completely shattered it, which is what I think is triggering my nerves today. So, I’m using this blog for a little free therapy and self-confidence boosting.
This year’s training has been much better than last year, both in consistency and the amount of training I’ve put in. I’m better prepared than I was last year and I’m much more capable than I give myself credit for. But I have always had a mental block when it comes to actually racing. I always seem to be holding myself back and am a little scared that I won’t be able to finish if I go too hard. So, here are my goals for this year:
Push myself harder and actually race – push harder on the swim and the bike, then run the whole thing. This race is half the distance of Lake Stevens, so there’s no reason to worry that I can’t do the distance, even while pushing the pace.
Beat last year’s times. (Preferably by A LOT!) Here’s what I’m up against:
Overall time: 3:46:03
Swim time: 0:43:46
1st transition: 5:17
Bike time: 1:35:40
2nd transition: 3:50
Run time: 1:17:29
There is lot’s of room to improve. I want to go under 3 and a half hours, by as much as I can. I know that’s not fast in the grand scheme of things, but it will prove to me that I can put all of the hard work to use in a race day situation, which will be a huge hurdle to overcome. Win or lose, I’ll post a race report tomorrow and see if I can get sleepy T to take some pictures that I’d be willing to show people (didn’t happen last year – yikes!)
Happy Saturday everyone!